First, it has been a long journey to be able to share things so personal about myself. Most of the things I will share on my blogs are the first anyone has ever heard…. including my own family. I have grown to a place of peace with myself, where I am gaining control of my life again and being able to share, breaking down the many walls I have built over the years. This is one of the reasons I started this blog project… in hopes that maybe I can INSPIRE someone. 🙂
When I was 16 years old, I was involved in a bad DUI accident (I was the passenger). The pickup truck I was in, flipped over 6 times and was destroyed. I was told later that my friend had to drag me out of the shattered windshield. Troopers were shocked that we survived. As a result, I was punctured in my face, which was so swollen and bruised that my eyelashes and eyebrows fell out over time. My back, however, was the biggest challenge. My spine was curved to the point that I had to have 1 1/2 years of treatment/therapy and was told I could never carry babies full term in the future…. although very painful, I carried 2 almost 9 lb boys, both full term 🙂
Since that accident, I lived my life in pain everyday. Taking pain medications when I really needed to… went to bed in pain and woke up in pain. Then one day my friend asked if I wanted to try Bikram yoga. I had absolutely no idea what it was, but went… I think I could have punched her during that class… lol (if you every tried Bikram, you know why I’m saying that). That was 3 years ago. Although my friend stopped going (Boo), I continued, and over time I gained strength and mobility in my back! My pain started subsiding, where I didn’t need pain meds anymore and I was able to touch my toes again! The pictures above show how far I can do back bends…. never in my life did I ever think I could do this with my spine! Physically, I was growing from my yoga practice.
Next was my mind…. this has been the biggest challenge for me, even still. Since my teens, I have suffered from depression. Never clinically getting help, I have been struggling off and on with it throughout the years…. maybe one day I will share more, but not today 🙂 Bikram yoga has saved me in a spiritual way…. getting to know who I am and giving me the power to love myself unconditionally. Allowing me to be truly happy….. the DESIRE I have had for years.
I believe that most of us are broken in some way (physically or emotionally). When talking to my friends that I have gained over the years in the Bikram community (another plus), they all have a story on how they journeyed into their practice. Although I know that Bikram yoga may not be for everybody, what’s important is that we embrace our life journey, whether it’s good or bad, learn from it and always work on OURSELVES! With the craziness of life, we are always taking care of others and just “stuff,” that we tend to forget about taking care of ourselves, spending time on actually growing as a person and getting to know who “we” are… it is so easy to lose yourself.
Love and always take care of YOU….
Love always, @thedesiredgurl